More than Coincidence: Remembering Jesus Christ in Your Story

Giving Up What I Love Most For the God Who Loves Me More with Kim

• Lily • Season 1 • Episode 44

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How do you navigate life when the unexpected hits hard? Meet Kim, a devoted mother and grandmother whose life literally begins to spin when she suddenly develops Mal de Débarquement Syndrome (MDDS), a rare and perplexing neurological condition. If that wasn't enough, Kim's health continues to nosedive as she stubbornly refuses to figure out a new "normal,"  which results in a battle for her life from septic shock, respiratory failure, hypoxia, and severe memory loss. Unable to recognize familiar faces and places, she turns to journaling and spiritual reflection to document her healing journey and record how she sees Christ and miracles throughout her day. This chapter is a testament to the transformative power of faith, emphasizing how embracing Jesus Christ's plan for us can bring peace and perspective even in the most challenging times. 

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Lily:

Hello everyone and welcome to. More Than Coincidence, remembering Jesus Christ in your Story. As the author and finisher of our faith, our Savior writes personal experiences into each of our lives which can later strengthen, empower and bring us peace upon reflection. This podcast is dedicated to sharing these anchoring memories from everyone's unique stories in order to collectively remember and testify of the reality of Jesus Christ and his presence in our lives. I'm your host, lily, and I'm very excited to share these experiences together. Welcome everybody to the podcast tonight. Today we have Kim. How are you, kim?

Kim:

Hi, I'm doing great. Thank you for having me. Will you introduce yourself for everybody, Sure? So my name is Kim Bulpit. I have five children and three grandchildren, a son-in-law and a daughter-in-law, and I live in Lehigh Utah.

Lily:

Yeah, you're one of the coolest people I know in the Lord.

Kim:

Well, you're my spiritual big sister, even though you could be one of my youngest children. I'm glad. I'm glad that you're here with me.

Lily:

No, it's good, we get it. We get to teach each other. Yes, absolutely. I will ask you the question, kim what memories do you have in your life that you reflect on, that prick your heart and remembrance of Jesus Christ and anchor you to him?

Kim:

Oh, there's so many, so many, some of the most recent I can talk about today because they're recent, yeah, and they prick my heart a lot, uh-huh, because I'm still working on some of them, right, a lot, because I'm still working on some of them, right. Um, my two youngest are twins. Last July we sent them off, actually end of June, sent them off on their missions.

Kim:

I can't believe it's been a year, it has been a year. Part of me is like, oh, my gosh, it's been a year. And the other part of me is like, oh, it's only been a year. Right, yeah, and I would love for them to be home, but at the same time I don't want them to be anywhere else. Right? They cannot learn what they're learning right now in any other way, exactly In any other capacity, in any other short two-year duration of time. That spiritual growth is that pricking themselves in remembrance of Christ. This is the best thing they can do. So I'm glad they're there. They're good examples to me. So they left. I was an empty nester, my husband and I empty nesters.

Kim:

And we thought, wow, we're going to have best time of our life so much fun. I was married at 19, had my first baby two weeks before my first anniversary. So I was, I was a, I was a teenage. Um, you're a young mom and and married and yeah, and all I did was kids you've been going for forever, going, going, going yeah. So I was really looking forward to this time, thinking, oh my goodness, I'm, I'm, I'm going to, you know, do so many things right. So many, now, many. Now is the time.

Lily:

I've earned this. I definitely have earned this.

Kim:

Well, we had the opportunity, we sent them off and then we had the opportunity to go on a beautiful Alaskan cruise with my sweet mother-in-law and my in-laws and it was fabulous. I had a time of my life, it was beautiful.

Lily:

She wails. We did, we saw all kinds of things and glaciers and beautiful, oh my gosh, the weather, the captain, even said, the weather has never been this good for me. And it was just, it was like perfect, it was it was really.

Kim:

I just was like oh, I can't wait to to bring my kids here.

Lily:

I want everyone to see this Right. I've heard Alaskan cruises are really awesome. They're gorgeous.

Kim:

It's just, it's just something else. Yeah, so we did that, got back and was doing great. About two days after I um started to feel a little sick, I thought well, maybe I have this stomach flu. I'm a little nauseous, I'm a little dizzy, something's off. During that whole day, right by the end of the day, I, I, I felt like, oh, my goodness, something is really off, I have to go lay down.

Kim:

I went and laid down around dinner time and as soon as I laid down I realized I was so dizzy and not like spinning dizzy, like being on a suspension bridge with people jumping around you. Oh my gosh, and you're not holding on Right, you're just going up and down and you're free falling at the same time. It was the weirdest, oh my gosh, and it was so it was.

Kim:

it was so panicky and it made me feel so sick and out of control, yeah, and I yelled to my husband to come in and he came in and I tried to explain how I was feeling and I tried to get up and I fell to the ground, I couldn't walk. I could not walk Not because my muscles were not strong enough, well, but the spinning like you couldn't even keep your balance. I could not figure which way was up and down at the time.

Kim:

So he took me um to the ER and I was diagnosed with something called malday debarkment syndrome. Mdds, okay, yeah, I've never heard of it. It's because it's rare I had never heard of it either. At first I thought is this vertigo? Like what, what?

Lily:

is yeah, or like I just got off a boat and maybe caught something on the cruise some inner ear or something, I didn't know.

Kim:

I just thought oh yeah, this is. They're gonna give me some medicine. I'll see a doctor if they need to, and then we'll be fine. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So they did give me some medicine. They sent me to an ENT. They sent me to a chiropractor. They sent me to a physical therapist. They sent me to I saw a neurologist. We went all these different routes to find out what to do with this. It wasn't anything other than an incorrect neuropathway in my brain, so I was born with this genetic predisposition for this. But in order for it to come out, this incorrect neuropathway, you have to have the exact set of circumstances Usually women around my age, type A, personalities involved in a lot of things you know, always got something going.

Kim:

Maybe puts a lot of pressure on themselves. And the funnest part of this all is like, usually in menopause ding, ding, ding me, I have everything.

Lily:

Just you know just everything, so I found out.

Kim:

this is really rare, but it has to have the perfect storm, and I was the perfect storm. So I thought, well, okay, this is, this is what it is. I, I, it was 24, seven, no relief. Um, it was really hard to get a fork to my mouth. I couldn't brush my hair or brush my teeth. You know general, anything that you're doing with your body sitting Sitting, yeah, getting out of bed anything Anything was way off and I would fall, so I needed a lot of help. I started some balance training.

Kim:

I found a really great doctor in Colorado who deals with MDDS specifically and got to start seeing her via thankfully we have the internet.

Lily:

Yeah, the telehealth, so we can do telehealth.

Kim:

Got to do that, because there was no way I was traveling.

Lily:

Yeah, no way.

Kim:

Riding in a car was hard. Just anything was hard Right. So I came to find out that this is something that doesn't have a cure. It's something that can be put into remission, but it can take some time and there's a lot of things I had to do to get it into remission a lot of things I had to give up. My doctor said you're going to have to stop working, and I worked as a computer teacher for an elementary school.

Lily:

I taught.

Kim:

K through three. I saw them all once a week. They were my school babies.

Lily:

I called them, my school babies, especially as an empty nester, you're probably looking forward to still having like kids in your life and this was my, the beginning of my fifth year teaching them. And.

Kim:

I, just I was in my comfort zone and I was like you know, the Lord is so good to me I'm an empty nester.

Lily:

I've got my dream job.

Kim:

I have time on my hands. I'm young enough to be able to experience and do things. You know, my health is great. I just I was really excited and then I had this heavy weight thrown on me that rocked my world. Well, I'm kind of stubborn, you know type.

Lily:

A personality, I can do this. No, I can't relate to that at all, right, so I told my doctors well, I'm not going to quit work.

Kim:

I can do this. I can do this Right. So they had to give me tools. They I wore ankle weights around my ankles. Does that help? Like just ground you something. It helped ground me Kind of interesting, right? Yeah, and my focus was what tools do I need to be able to continue doing what I want to do? Yeah, my tools were medication, my tools were learning about balance.

Kim:

My tools were strengthening my body and my muscles in ways that I hadn't been before. Right, I was literally relearning to walk, relearning to take care of myself. Yeah, and those were my tools. That's what I focused on. I didn't forget about Jesus Christ. I didn't forget about my relationship with him. I didn't forget about how important he was to me and what that was.

Lily:

Yeah.

Kim:

But my focus was Was elsewhere, elsewhere.

Lily:

Right.

Kim:

And so time went on and I wasn't getting healthy very fast and I was getting frustrated and I remember telling my husband this is going on forever. I can't see an end to this. They said it could take a couple of months. It could take maybe up to a year. You just never know how long it'll take to get it in remission. Well, school started. One of my favorite little kindergartners noticed that I was wearing something on my ankles and he said Mrs Bullpit, why are you wearing sausages on your ankles?

Lily:

I thought that was about that.

Kim:

First of all, they are so honest. They are so honest and and it just made me giggle and see, instead of this heaviness that was pulling me down during that day, it made me giggle.

Lily:

And I thought you're right. I am wearing sausages on my ankle.

Kim:

The kids were so sweet.

Lily:

My school was so sweet.

Kim:

I had parents telling me oh, my child prays for you.

Kim:

I had other parents telling me my child goes to the temple and puts your name in the temple. Yeah, wow. And I was so touched Right by them remembering what was important yeah, remembering the most important things to help me get through things Right. And I had glimpses of remembering that, and then I would go back to focusing on my tools. Yeah, tools are good, don't get me wrong. Yeah, that was like my focus. Yeah, tools are good, don't get me wrong. Yeah, yeah, yeah, that was like my focus, right, right. So October came. I had bronchitis for about a month and a half oh my gosh.

Kim:

And the doctor had tried, in addition to you know, all this MDDS, my world was literally rocking and I had antibiotics and steroids and and I usually get sick in the winter and I have a cough for a few months, and so I thought well, this is what I'm doing again. It's fine, I just pushed through. I would get winded. But then I would tell myself, right, oh, just push through, you're fine. I want my job, I want my kids.

Lily:

I don't want to stop.

Kim:

I'll be fine, it's not contagious, so I'm not hurting them. Yeah, because the doctors told me what I had was not contagious with my cough and stuff. Right, it is something that I turned into something.

Lily:

So just keep going, it's not hurting anyone, just keep going.

Kim:

I need this job. I want this job. I like the fulfillment it gives me. I like the connection with the children, with the wonderful people at my school that worked there. I liked the extra money so I could go travel and see my grandchildren and do fun things. I got a lot from it, so I pushed through.

Lily:

I think it's almost a way for you to find control in your life when you literally are out of control physically. Like it was maybe you even just trying to find some sense of, some semblance of normalcy, like I am not an invalid, like I can still do these things and even maybe proving to yourself like I can still function.

Kim:

That's so profound, that is exactly that is exactly what I had told my, my husband. This gives me a sense of purpose. This is my normal.

Lily:

Right. This makes me feel more normal to be able to go and do this, because then, when I come home, I have to crash because I'm exhausted.

Kim:

I have to sleep. I have to, whatever that is, but that I could pretend nothing was wrong, exactly, exactly. So I pushed through, kept pretending. One morning I got up to get ready for school, realized I was way off. So I decided well, I'll just rotate some Tylenol and Advil today, just see how it goes, I'll just see how I go at school and the shower. That morning I almost fell three times and it wasn't because of my motion, it was a different feeling of falling, it kind of caught me off guard.

Kim:

So I thought, well, I'm going to lay down for a minute but I'll be fine, Called in sick to work got a sub Right Thought well, I'll be fine.

Lily:

Um.

Kim:

I had this feeling and this thought came into my head. Something is seriously wrong. So I thought, well, I'm going to lay here the next thing I knew my fingers are literally touch, texting my husband Like. I didn't even realize I was doing it. Something is wrong. Well, he came home and I told him I just need to sleep and I'll probably be fine. He said I want to take you to the ER.

Lily:

Yeah, I would say sleeping is probably not good for something with a brain problem right, right, me.

Kim:

Being me was like just give me some time and I'll be fine, just watch me today. Just watch me today yeah, well, part way he came in and said no, you're going to the ER right now. Yeah, within 10 minutes of being in the ER, I was diagnosed with septic shock. I had code sepsis. No, I don't remember most of this, I just know what the doctors told me, and my husband and my parents ended up coming over and told me my bronchitis had turned to pneumonia.

Kim:

yeah, I had passed the levels of severe sepsis to septic shock. Um, my heart had damage. I had a punctured lung. My lungs 50 percent were damaged and black and not. The doctors thought that the pulmonologist kept asking if I'd been a smoker my whole life. No, I've never smoked a day in my life. Yeah, I actually feel like I'm allergic to cigarette smoke.

Lily:

The symptoms I get when I smell it, yeah.

Kim:

I had. I had respiratory failure with hypoxia. It did damage in my brain, it did damage to my liver.

Lily:

Yeah, everything, my heart, everything needs oxygen.

Kim:

Everything, everything. It took three and a half to four hours to stabilize me enough to leave the er room to go up to the icu. Wow, they didn't know if I was gonna live or die right. Um, I spent five days in the icu and didn't realize it was as serious as it was until they told me we didn't know if you were gonna make it or not. Three days of the icu. I was on 24 hour watch.

Kim:

They just didn't know if I was going to make it or not. Right, and thankfully, by the grace of God, literally, literally, I made it. Yeah, and I went home. And I remember going home and thinking what am I going to do? What?

Lily:

am I going to do?

Kim:

I had to take time off work at that point. Yeah, you cannot go back to work.

Lily:

Yeah, you can't justify that, you're literally coming back from the dead. So you need some time. I was forced into this?

Kim:

Yeah, forced into this, and so I took the time off work. Did you feel really?

Lily:

angry and bitter. I feel like I'd be kind of angry, like I thought I had everything and then everything crashes again.

Kim:

I told my husband what am I supposed to learn from this? What good has come, I know. Through our trials we learn and we grow, and good comes from it. I cannot see good right now I can't see the good.

Kim:

In fact, it was so hard and I was so sick and I had to be, in oxygen at my house, right, and I had to have home health care and there were times that I said why didn't Heavenly Father just let me die? Right, this is too hard. Everything's been taken away from me. Yeah, right, I also had memory issues, right, because I had loss of oxygen. Yeah, I'd go into my closet and clothes some of the clothes were new. My husband's, like it was the best best thing for for and it came from. This is your closet was like a new shopping experience for you every day. I didn't so so and there was.

Lily:

I thought I have never seen this shirt before.

Kim:

This is great. Um, on the flip side, I didn't recognize some of the people at my, in my neighborhood or in my ward I didn't recognize some of the drawers in my house. I didn't recognize some of the buildings that had been there for years and it terrified me, right, it was very scary it's like what important things maybe have I lost?

Lily:

what have I lost? What have I lost? You don't even know.

Kim:

I didn't know what I didn't know. In fact, I remember writing down at know I didn't know what I didn't know.

Kim:

In fact, I remember writing down at one time I don't know what I don't know, and that is more scary than not knowing what I know. Right, what I don't know? Does that make sense? Yeah, no, totally. That was more scary to me. Also, I learned about my brain. It was like no, since I had respiratory failure with hypoxia. I learned that my brain was like a wedge of Swiss cheese. You cut a slice and every day you don't know which holes are going to be where and how big they're going to be. So sometimes I remembered some things and sometimes I didn't.

Lily:

Yeah.

Kim:

That was very scary to me.

Lily:

Yeah.

Kim:

And frustrating Right frustrating right, I had days I remember, about two months out after being home from the hospital, that I didn't understand why I was sick and why I was feeling the way I was feeling and what was going on. And my husband said well, you were in the ICU. Yeah, I had to explain everything again. You had septic shock. You almost died. You've had some damage to your vital organs and your brain Right and I looked at him and I said why haven't?

Lily:

you told me and I was so mad, I feel so like to, you just need like all the sticky notes everywhere.

Kim:

That's when we realized that I needed a journal. I needed to journal what I knew and what I had learned and I started every day, what I knew, what I'd learned, what I was grateful for, so that I could see in my own handwriting the tender mercies from my heavenly father. I could see Jesus Christ helping me along the way. I had to write it down and even though my physical body and brain could not remember, I could see in my own handwriting what was going on and how I was improving.

Kim:

And the good Right, Because my focus for so long had been what are my tools? What do I have to do to get healthy? What am?

Lily:

I forgetting.

Kim:

What am I? And it was. That was a constant state of anxiety and like panic yeah, I can't.

Kim:

And panic and relying on the things of man, right, right, which in reality we still have to do that. We have to rely on the things here that are good for us, that do help us, right, right. But my general focus, my first and foremost focus, had slipped away from Jesus Christ. Right and his role in helping me through this and his role of touching my heart and helping me realize the blessings, right, and the tender mercies and the little miracles and the little gains. Yeah, without that Right I was headed down in my progress.

Kim:

Exactly, right, it's through him that I can progress with these other things Right, these other tools that I was given Right, and I realized that I had really gotten away from that.

Lily:

Yeah, so do you feel like you just really had to change your perspective? It's your perspective and your paradigm shift exactly to help, absolutely.

Kim:

I had been given so many blessings during this time. I had faith in blessings. I had been listening. I didn't stop listening. I mean, obviously there was a lot of time I couldn't go to church.

Kim:

I didn't stop studying, though I didn't stop listening and trying to learn, right, but my focus was so focused on healing and getting my body healthy, which is good, right, but I had to shift it through what means what was the first and foremost important meaning Instead of being. This is so hard every day. I don't see the good in this.

Lily:

Yeah.

Kim:

I had to choose Jesus Right. Don't see the good in this. Yeah, I had to choose Jesus Right. I had to choose where he was and how he was helping me every single day, whether or not, he would heal you.

Lily:

That's right. Because I feel like, yeah, if it were me, I'd be praying like okay, you're supposed to be the master healer, like when something going to happen, right, yeah, or even just you know, pray that I can find another doctor that this medication would. Yeah, the thy will be done. Portion.

Kim:

That we kind of. I think that is the difference, thy will, I am following your hand in my life Right Through this journey yeah, even though it is not the journey I would have chosen for myself, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Kim:

Like it usually isn't Right, but apparently he knows what's best for me. He knows what kim bull pit needs to go through in this life to become my best self in order to be able to return and live with him. 100. I have faith and trust and I know that, right, I know that. I know that through the hardships, right. I remember my boys on a mission. At this time I didn't know what they knew, or didn't know Cause I had a lot of memory loss.

Lily:

Yeah, panicking that their mom was dying.

Kim:

Yeah Right, my, my kids and my husband kept them updated the best they can without also worrying them too much. Tried to give them, feed them positives. Yeah, but they were such a sweet, tender, tender, miracle mercies in my life to be able to. We can now um video call them and talk video call them every single week, yeah, and at first I remember being a little like oh my gosh, I have different days with each boy. I want them on the same day. I want to see their faces on the same day.

Lily:

How come?

Kim:

I can't have the same p-day when I can video and I can see them together.

Lily:

But now with your memory loss. You wouldn't remember if which day was.

Kim:

I don't remember who I've talked to what or when. Anyway, right, but I came to find that the blessing in that different day yeah was was a tender mercy so I got forward to. I got more things to look forward to during my week.

Kim:

Yeah, you know, I got more days to experience it. That was wonderful. I remember my son Trevor one day, knowing some of the things I'd gone through and I was feeling frustrated at that point. Yeah, I might not be able to go back to work. I had started back to work. I had cut it down to very two days a week.

Lily:

Yeah, and I had to have help?

Kim:

Yeah, and I had to have help, yeah, and I had to do the minimum Right, but I was still pushing and I remember feeling so frustrated, like my health had only gotten better to a certain point.

Kim:

Right, and my son, trevor, said he had listened to a talk by someone and I wish I could get credit where credit is due. Uh-huh, I can't remember who it was, but it talked about are you willing to give up what you want most, what you love most, for the God you love more? Right, and that just hit me like a ton of bricks. Yeah, wow. Am I willing to give up pushing my agenda? Well, this job makes me happy.

Kim:

This job is fulfilling to me this job. I'm doing good things here this is good. Right of failing to the this job. I'm doing good things here. This is right, right for, ultimately, jesus christ, who knows me intimately, right and is willing to help me along the path that my heavenly father wants me to go on. Am I willing to give that up for those, jesus christ and my and my heavenly father that I love more yeah, and it just to the very core, hit me, wow, hit me Well.

Kim:

Miracle number two that same week my other son had not talked to Trevor, my other missionary son, nathan they had not conversed didn't know I was going through this. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And Nathan said I have a thought I want to share with you, mom. And he brought up that very exact talk about giving up what we want most and what we love most for the God who loves us and who we love more, and so that was my sign yes, quit my job.

Kim:

Quit my job, quit my job. Change paths and let Jesus Christ be the lens that I look through right to help me heal, to help me do whatever my journey is. Yeah, in this life, to learn whatever I need to through him. I wasn't doing bad things before, right, but obviously such an abrupt stop for me was not the path I was supposed.

Lily:

It was an abrupt turnaround yeah, I can't even imagine how hard that would have been. I would have been like, okay, one day a week, we'll just we'll slowly ease out of this, and that's what I did for a while even after coming back from the dead. I still decided I was going to, just you know a little bit here and there, yeah, but giving it all up, as hard as that is as hard as that was because I loved it.

Kim:

I finally found like my purpose I felt like in life Right Is to be with these children and be able to teach them about internet safety?

Lily:

Yeah, and important skills be able to teach them.

Kim:

We can't we can't necessarily talk about Jesus Christ in school, but I talk to them about their inner Jiminy Cricket all the time you have one you have an inner Jiminy Cricket it is leading you.

Lily:

You listen to that right. You know we couldn't talk about those things.

Kim:

But I right, but I told them that because I felt it was so important, so I thought I'm giving up something so good.

Lily:

Yeah. But, with for what, like you don't even know Right now, I don't know.

Kim:

Yeah, I still don't exactly know. I have little ideas, little things. Um, my dad has Parkinson's. I was going to say, with all the family stuff going on, and now he has dementia parkinson's. I was gonna say, with all the family stuff going on and now he has dementia. Yeah, and my dad type a personality. He was a bishop, he was a state president, he was a mission president, he was a temple president, he ran his own company, he built it, he sold it, whoa, he, he, my dad, knew and could do, in my opinion, everything, yeah, right and clear, even up until he was 74. I mean, he had some Parkinson's during that time, right, but he was still going, but he was still my goodness, I wonder where you get it from.

Kim:

The apple doesn't feel far from the tree, fall far from the tree. But, um, watching him change this past little while, yeah, and losing some of himself in dementia, right, and seeing him struggle with Parkinson's and watching his brain be confused and forget and be scared, yeah. Some of the things that I went through during this with my balance issues.

Lily:

Yeah.

Kim:

You know the falling. We would laugh. He was my shaky buddy, We'd fall together.

Lily:

It was fine.

Kim:

We, we had comfort in each other because we knew how each other kind of felt. Right, right. Yes, and then my brain, the forgetting, the anxiety, the depression that came with it. Right, the scariness, the confusion. Right the crying and seeing him do that at times.

Lily:

Right we were buddies, the mourning what you were morning.

Kim:

The loss yeah, like you have to go through that grieving process. I kind of feel like everything this past year and it's been over just over a year since this all has happened yeah, it's helped me in some small way connect on a level with my dad that no one else in my family can they want to. They're there for him, they love him, they empathize with him, they see the struggle and they're so good to him.

Kim:

But there's something about what I went through, that we can sit and talk and I can maybe help explain a little bit what he's feeling when he can't get the words Right Exactly and my dad is my hero. Yeah, if I can help be his words when he can't find them, this is worth it.

Kim:

If that's the only thing I'm supposed to learn. Yeah, through quitting everything and relying on Jesus and having Jesus Christ prick my heart so much, in so many different ways, yeah, helping my dad and being able to be his words and sit with him in the mud when it's ugly, yeah, then it's all worth it.

Lily:

yeah which is crazy because, if you think about it, it's going back to the one of how christ ministers, to the one oh yeah and you're getting to have that opportunity of ministering to the one in that respect as well in a totally unique way that only the savior could offer fully and completely. But you can even get a tiny glimpse of what even that could be like, and that's really special.

Kim:

Absolutely. It's so small, it's such a small thing to be able to do, but such a powerful, huge, life-changing, wonderful experience for me and I'm starting to see.

Kim:

No, I don't understand why I went through everything I went through or why it still plagues me a little bit yeah yeah, but I have such great faith in the path that I need to follow, in Jesus Christ being my lens that I see through in order to do everything else, and him being my anchor and him being yoked with him, needing Jesus more than I need air. And I'm telling you when you're in the hospital and you can't breathe Right.

Lily:

Kind of puts a new perspective on things. It's a big perspective.

Kim:

I had to struggle to breathe for so long, but guess what?

Lily:

Yeah.

Kim:

There's so many things in my life that I have needed to struggle and need Jesus more than I need air, and when I'm able to do that and I'm not perfect at this I am learning, yeah, and I'm thankful I'm learning, and I hope to always continue to learn because I need it Right. But when I reach out for him more than I need air to breathe, things are okay.

Kim:

Yeah, might not be better or the best, it's not easy, yeah, but there's hope and there's healing, and there's peace and there's happiness, yeah, and there's calm in Jesus Christ. I know that to be true with every fiber of my being. I can't deny it. I've seen it, I felt it, I've breathed it, literally.

Lily:

Literally.

Kim:

And for that I'm grateful, that's wonderful.

Lily:

Well, I actually I don't have any other, any other questions.

Kim:

So, if you don't have any other further thoughts, would you mind just have a testimony of our Heavenly Father's plan, that it is individual and unique for each one of us, yet the same covenant path takes us back to him, all of us. I have a testimony that if we rely on our Savior, if we do the little things start where we are, don't expect perfection, because do the little things start where we are? Don't expect perfection because we won't ever be there in this life. Right, and that's okay, right, yeah.

Lily:

That's okay.

Kim:

I will never make it in this life, but I can make progress and I can continue to do that through my Savior, jesus Christ, and that is my testimony that he lives, that he is there for each one of us in our journey, continually. We'll be there, no matter what. Whether we reach for him or not, he is still standing by us and I'm grateful for that, and I say this in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Lily:

Amen. Thank you, Kim, for spending time with me today.

Kim:

Thanks Lily, I really appreciate it, I love you.

Lily:

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